"Temporary" Venting Thread IV

[Earniel]

Here's hoping the (multiple) surgery will go alright, RÃ*an.

This sure seems a bad period for medical trouble, it seems. Next monday, my parents and I all have doctor appointments as well. (Well, one doctor, two specialists.) Although the worst I'm looking at at the moment is a biopsy. Not that I am looking particularly forward to that either.... You hear that, bacterial infection? This means I want you out by Monday. Shoo, you've overstayed your welcome.

[Rían]

I hope your appts go well, and that the infection packs up and leaves town! Is the biopsy for the infection?

My RPG posts should be interesting on pain-killers ...

[Earniel]

Yup.

It has improved, mind you, barely itches by now but it's still a pink spot the size of a 20 eurocent coin. With luck the specialist will say it will continue to heal nicely. Otherwise: biopsy to fully identify the bugger and then -I hope- nuke it personalised antibiotics. Kill! Kill!

[Rían]

(and I thought you were such a peace-loving girl!)

[Mari]

It's 6.30, I barely slept, it's bloody storming outside and I have to leave in a few minutes to go through the hail and winds to the station on my bike so I can catch the early train to school.
I am now officially cranky. I hate being cranky.

Earn, you good luck at the doctor's too! If you ever need someone with a mace to help kill infections or something, I'm your man! Woman! Whatever!

[Earniel]

Originally Posted by RÃ*an

(and I thought you were such a peace-loving girl!)

I am, just not with illegally invading bacteria that set up shop on my skin. And of course the little buggers can't be a text-book case and just clear up with antibiotics, noooo, they have to be the deviant kind that leads to biopsies.

*now has tiny stitched hole in skin*

Fne.

Originally Posted by Mari

Earn, you good luck at the doctor's too! If you ever need someone with a mace to help kill infections or something, I'm your man! Woman! Whatever!

Do you happen to have a tiny mace? Because my skin is underneath, you see. If so, swing at will!

[Mari]

*offers Earn the use of a 'speldenknop' sized made* That oughta do the trick
But seriously, that sucks. Bacteria should just be good little bacteria and die when they are supposed to! >_<

[Midge]

Well... hopefully the heck is ending. I broke up with my boyfriend this weekend. I decided that, after realizing how many people thought the way he was treating me was stupid (including my parents, my friends, my parents' friends, and even some of you guys, if I remember your reactions after I told you about the margarita thing). I began to realize that he really was controlling and manipulating. The car thing helped me to see. He may not have been consciously pitting me against my dad, but there was animosity between me and my dad because he tried to tell me that what I wanted could only be achieved this way and I believed him. I felt I had to be loyal to him because my family would only be loyal to me. I'm glad they were. And he would never dance with me. That was a big deal to me.

It's been quite the disaster. I broke up with him on Saturday, and I cried most of that day. Hardly ate anything except for a small piece of pepperoni pizza, a chocolate dunker from pizza hut (my mom bought them for me because she felt bad) and a chocolate chip cookie which was very good.

At my church, I help out with the visuals during the services, and I was in the middle of our pastor's sermon when I get an text from the guy telling me he wanted to meet me that afternoon (that upset me and I started crying and had to have my brother finish the service while I went out and cried.. I'm thankful he was there, though).

My boyfriend thought two years warranted an afternoon of talking (by which he meant trying to dissuade me from staying broken up). I went and talked to him and he had written me this four or five page letter (I thought it was five, but he had me keep it and I only have four) during which he blamed me for not seriously wanting him to correct his controlling problem (which I had refused to see) in two years, and for giving him so little time to try to correct it after I brought it to his attention (a day or so... I didn't think he would correct it, no matter how long I gave him. He would just rearrange stuff and not know that he was still controlling).

He thought I was cheating on him (mostly because it was a guy who had been telling me that how I'd been treated was not how it is supposed to be) and told me that after breaking up with him, I was just going to go find another new guy, date him for a while, and then break up with him too when the newness wore off. He said things that made him sound like he was the only one who could ever love me. He also emailed me last night asking if we could maybe just take a year off and stuff and be exclusive during that year. I mostly just want him to leave me alone.

I ate a meal before what I'm calling "the ordeal" (the letter talk), and after I tried, but it didn't work. Then I stayed up till 3:30 this morning writing a paper which I didn't have time to write during the day because of breaking up and stuff.

I didn't eat breakfast today and could only manage a few bites at lunch before feeling sickened. He was very distressed and I was sorry for that, but I wasn't going to let him let me let him walk all over me again. He claimed that all he was trying to do was give me what I wanted, but when I've been crying two or three nights a week for the past few months, there's something wrong. And he never tried to fix it. He always just assumed getting married would do so.

But I'm really worried about my eating. I keep getting shaky because I haven't eaten a whole lot, but when I try to eat, I feel like puking. My hungry times aren't when they're supposed to be, either. But basically, my only real meal since lunch on Friday was yesterday at lunch. Since then it's been mostly tiny snacks of what could be meals.

AND I don't think the essay was top-notch.

[Mari]

Oh Midge!
Stay strong and true to yourself. Being selfish is totally okay in a situation like this.
I hope you can eat something again soon though.

*huggles*

[Rían]

Whew! Sounds like you did the right thing! Sorry it's so hard ... that's no fun! *Moothug* Keep snacking - whatever works - you need food so you won't get sick. And re-read the last line of your sig

[Midge]

I know. The only food that ever seems remotely good to me is not good for me. I was so upset yesterday morning when I heard that my dad and brother ate all the pizza so there was no cold pizza for breakfast!

Although I couldn't finish my Cosmic Brownie at lunch today... That hardly ever happens. Now I feel really sick. And I've got a full afternoon. Car stuff to do. Stink!

[Earniel]

Aw, Midge, poor you. *hugs*

But reading what your ex-boyfriend all tried to blame on you, sounds like your better off without him.

I hope your appetite returns soon.

[Midge]

Me too. I actually had a thought... last week, there was a guy at work who was really sick with a stomach thing, but he came to work anyway... maybe I'm really sick.

Yeah... he tried to guilt me by saying that I wasn't thinking, I was just saying whatever my parents and "Mr. Crush" told me to, and that he hadn't eaten or slept. I don't want to make him seem so horrible, but I guess he was without me noticing.

[Mari]

Well, whatever other people may say about him now or what you think of him, he did have good points, otherwise you wouldn't have liked him. You are a sensible person, not a masochist, so don't let anyone tell you it was stupid.
And don't feel bad about having liked him in the first place.

[sisterandcousinandaunt]

Originally Posted by Midge

Yeah... he tried to guilt me by saying that I wasn't thinking, I was just saying whatever my parents and "Mr. Crush" told me to, and that he hadn't eaten or slept. I don't want to make him seem so horrible, but I guess he was without me noticing.

I guess he was.

Here's my POV. People have to treat me well, because that exists in the real world. And I know why some people have problems, they didn't have good role models, they have a poor self-concept...yep, I get that.

But, well, I don't care anymore, when it comes to adult behavior. Keep your issues to yourself, don't take them out on me.

The thing I high-lighted, I mean, how offensive is that? It's like you (as yourself) don't really exist, you're just some kind of mirror, or something. His mirror, apparently.

Naw. I ain't buyin'. I don't know him from Adam, but I know Midge, and she's a real person, to me. (((((HUGS)))))

About the food. I'd try something lighter, like a light soup. But if the only thing you really fancy eating is a roll of cookie-dough, just do that. Miserable nutrition for a week won't hurt you.

[Mari]

[minor rant] I can still hear the sound of the dentist getting my wisdom teeth out. It is going to follow me into my dreams, I just know it >_< [/minor rant]

[Earniel]

Now you're giving me nightmares! >.<

*has four wisdom teeth that no doubt should come out as well*

[Varnafindë]

*hugs Midge and Mari*
*has already got most of her wisdom teeth out*

[katya]

Aw, Midge... ((hug)) I can imagine how hard things must be right now, but honestly, it really sounds like you made the right choice. I'm happy for you. That sucks about the food thing- I get like that when I'm upset too. I remember this one time for a few days all I would eat was Oreos. And right before bed, too. It'll get better. It might take some time, but it'll get better. Eat whatever you want, I say. Even if it is bad for you.

[Midge]

I'm better today... I asked my ex-boyfriend to quit trying to talk to me, and he has. But he upset one of our mutual friends who didn't agree with what he was doing, but cared enough to call him and see how he was. I had talked to her beforehand and he knew that she wouldn't like it. I hope this all ends SOON! I'm betting it will.

I ate both breakfast and lunch today, and I'm getting hungry just in time for dinner tonight! I'm happy about that.

And Mari and Earn, I had my wisdom teeth out earlier this year. It's not too bad.. it's a really good excuse to just stay home or let other people take you places (although I don't think either of you drive?) I ate lots of puddings and soups and macaroni and cheeses and my face looked really funny:



I was wearing the scarf like that because my cheeks were sagging, they were so heavy and it was pulling on my face. The scarf was wonderful! It went away pretty soon for me. I met one girl who was fine the day after. Don't forget that they usually drug you up for it...

It was really nice because it quit moving my other teeth around after I'd had my braces!