Temporary Venting Thread - Page 13

Lotesse · 05-17-2005, 04:02 PM

and my vent - I'm starting to get ominously chubby for the first time in my life, as I've been clean of crystal meth for like 7 months now; my metabolism is starting to readjust and this doesn't go well with my natural inclination towards both procrastination and laziness. AAARRRGG!! HATING IT! But at least I'm regaining my brain and creativity, which speed kills off.

***Rían*** · 05-17-2005, 04:55 PM

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Originally Posted by Nurvingiel

I hope you enjoyed by genetics table ..

Yup, thanks - that's the one!

***Rían*** · 05-17-2005, 04:57 PM

Wow, Lotesse, that must have been hard - congrats, and keep it up!! I'm sure it takes a while to adjust, but it's worth it to be off that stuff!

Lotesse · 05-17-2005, 05:06 PM

thanx, Rian; yes it really IS difficult to readjust after years of self-abuse, but on the upside - it is SO, so worth it to have life and spirit again.

Snowdog · 05-17-2005, 05:10 PM

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Originally Posted by Lotesse

and my vent - I'm starting to get ominously chubby for the first time in my life, as I've been clean of crystal meth for like 7 months now; my metabolism is starting to readjust and this doesn't go well with my natural inclination towards both procrastination and laziness. AAARRRGG!! HATING IT! But at least I'm regaining my brain and creativity, which speed kills off.

Good on being clean Lotesse!

Butterbeer · 05-17-2005, 05:21 PM

chubby you can deal with a lot easier than the pernicious headF***ks of any dependency on drugs: take the life and creativity and use it to fight the flab ( i suspect you are not really that chubby anyway?)

surely thats a sign your body is weaned off Speed?

Best of luck anyway
BB

Lotesse · 05-17-2005, 05:33 PM

True that, Butterbeer; chubby is just aggravating and fairly easily dealt with, unlike speed addiction. I've been weaned off speed for a long time, it wasn't ever physical dependency that was the issue with me, it was psychological - and I used to shoot a half-to a gram a day, with very few "breaks" in between days. That's a lot of dope. I'm VERY thankful at least that I was never into heroin - now THAT evil, evil stuff is both psycologically AND physically addicting.
I just have to get up off my ass and start excersizing regularly, and learn how to be a normalish human being... ahh, well. Thank god for Entmoot

Butterbeer · 05-17-2005, 06:03 PM

...er yeah ( with ref being a normalish human being) ... thank god for entmoot!

Snowdog · 05-17-2005, 06:29 PM

Thank God for Tolkien! Wow.. I had one rule, and that was never to ****** anything. The ***** can be dependent enough though, and the cost is high.

yeah.. exercise is a tough one to do.....

Lotesse · 05-17-2005, 06:50 PM

That was MY rule, too, for a really long time, and then...
Yeah, the cost IS high (no pun intended), in every way - monetarily, physically, spiritually, intellectually, etcetera; but for me it didn't cost much money because all my friends were gangbangers or meth chefs who kept me supplied at a fraction of street-value prices. Now most of these people are dead or imprisoned, and I will never cease being grateful to whatever powers that be that I'm not among them.
So, exersize it is. But first, I have to finish this nice Margarita I just made...

***Tessar*** · 05-17-2005, 08:00 PM

Lets stop talking about drugs please

. BB, Lot, and Snow, if you guys want to continue the discussion please move it to PMs.

Thanks guys

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Lotesse · 05-17-2005, 08:14 PM

I figured someone would say something pretty soon - sorry 'bout that, Tessar, suppose I was going on about it a little much.

Nerdanel · 05-17-2005, 08:31 PM

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Originally Posted by Lotesse

I figured someone would say something pretty soon - sorry 'bout that, Tessar, suppose I was going on about it a little much.

I don't think you were. You are strong to give that up - I'm sure you get much more than you lose. Keep strong, and if you need to talk about it, we're here.

***Tessar*** · 05-17-2005, 08:40 PM

*nod* If you need to talk about it that's fine, but we do have some younger members so I'd rather it didn't delve into the full blown description of it right here on the open board

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Please do feel free to talk to other members about it though.

Lotesse · 05-17-2005, 09:46 PM

thanx, you guys. Entmoot really is one of the little things I've got in my life that I can do & look forward to that helps keep me clean; I never NEVER talk about these things from my past to anyone except here in Entmoot.

Snowdog · 05-18-2005, 10:51 AM

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Originally Posted by Tessar

*nod* If you need to talk about it that's fine, but we do have some younger members so I'd rather it didn't delve into the full blown description of it right here on the open board

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Please do feel free to talk to other members about it though.

Did you ever think that these younger members might benefit from hearing about how this stuff we can't publicly mention here can mess people up? I can understand your concern if we were promoting the use of drugs, but we are not. Exactly the opposite in fact.

Spock · 05-18-2005, 10:55 AM

**That's not what Tessar mean nor said** You can PM each other and still expand someones knowledge of a topic, it's just that there are some under age members that don't need to hear the horror stories from your past. We're not against sharing the information, just the way you do it.

***Sister Golden Hair*** · 05-18-2005, 11:09 AM

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Originally Posted by Spock

**That's not what Tessar mean nor said** You can PM each other and still expand someones knowledge of a topic, it's just that there are some under age members that don't need to hear the horror stories from your past. We're not against sharing the information, just the way you do it.

I agree. While there is nothing wrong with discussion of drug addiction or sharing a success story in beating an addiction, there is a problem with becoming too graphic in discussing methods of drug use. Too much information. Although there may be something positive to learn from it, it is no different here at Entmoot than it would be with useing viewer descretion when watching a graphic tv program.

Snowdog · 05-18-2005, 01:15 PM

Sorry for venting.

Insidious Rex · 05-18-2005, 01:47 PM

Man how pathetically sad...

05-17-2005, 04:02 PM	#241
Lotesse of the House of Fëanor Join Date: Apr 2005 Location: Los Angeles Posts: 6,150	and my vent - I'm starting to get ominously chubby for the first time in my life, as I've been clean of crystal meth for like 7 months now; my metabolism is starting to readjust and this doesn't go well with my natural inclination towards both procrastination and laziness. AAARRRGG!! HATING IT! But at least I'm regaining my brain and creativity, which speed kills off. __________________ Few people have the imagination for reality. ~Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

05-17-2005, 04:57 PM	#243
*Rían* Half-Elven Princess of Rabbit Trails and Harp-Wielding Administrator (beware the Rubber Chicken of Doom!) Join Date: Sep 2002 Location: Not where I want to be ... Posts: 15,254	Wow, Lotesse, that must have been hard - congrats, and keep it up!! I'm sure it takes a while to adjust, but it's worth it to be off that stuff! __________________ . I should be doing the laundry, but this is MUCH more fun! Ñá ë?* óú éä ïöü Öñ É Þ ð ß ® ç å ™ æ ♪ ?* "How lovely are Thy dwelling places, O Lord of hosts! ... For a day in Thy courts is better than a thousand outside." (from Psalm 84) * * * God rocks! Entmoot : Veni, vidi, velcro - I came, I saw, I got hooked! Ego numquam pronunciare mendacium, sed ego sum homo indomitus! Run the earth and watch the sky ... Auta i lómë! Aurë entuluva!

05-17-2005, 05:06 PM	#244
Lotesse of the House of Fëanor Join Date: Apr 2005 Location: Los Angeles Posts: 6,150	thanx, Rian; yes it really IS difficult to readjust after years of self-abuse, but on the upside - it is SO, so worth it to have life and spirit again. __________________ Few people have the imagination for reality. ~Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

05-17-2005, 05:33 PM	#247
Lotesse of the House of Fëanor Join Date: Apr 2005 Location: Los Angeles Posts: 6,150	True that, Butterbeer; chubby is just aggravating and fairly easily dealt with, unlike speed addiction. I've been weaned off speed for a long time, it wasn't ever physical dependency that was the issue with me, it was psychological - and I used to shoot a half-to a gram a day, with very few "breaks" in between days. That's a lot of dope. I'm VERY thankful at least that I was never into heroin - now THAT evil, evil stuff is both psycologically AND physically addicting. I just have to get up off my ass and start excersizing regularly, and learn how to be a normalish human being... ahh, well. Thank god for Entmoot __________________ Few people have the imagination for reality. ~Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

05-17-2005, 06:29 PM	#249
Snowdog Dúnedain Ranger of the North Join Date: Aug 2000 Location: The Ruins of Arnor Posts: 892	Thank God for Tolkien! Wow.. I had one rule, and that was never to **** anything. The *** can be dependent enough though, and the cost is high. yeah.. exercise is a tough one to do..... __________________ "I am an outlaw, I was born an outlaw's son. The highway is my legacy, on the highway I will run." Last edited by Snowdog : 05-18-2005 at 01:17 PM. Reason: "too graphic"

05-17-2005, 05:21 PM	#246
Butterbeer Elf Lord Join Date: Mar 2005 Location: here and there Posts: 3,514	chubby you can deal with a lot easier than the pernicious headF***ks of any dependency on drugs: take the life and creativity and use it to fight the flab ( i suspect you are not really that chubby anyway?) surely thats a sign your body is weaned off Speed? Best of luck anyway BB

05-17-2005, 06:03 PM	#248
Butterbeer Elf Lord Join Date: Mar 2005 Location: here and there Posts: 3,514	...er yeah ( with ref being a normalish human being) ... thank god for entmoot!

05-17-2005, 06:50 PM	#250
Lotesse of the House of Fëanor Join Date: Apr 2005 Location: Los Angeles Posts: 6,150	That was MY rule, too, for a really long time, and then... Yeah, the cost IS high (no pun intended), in every way - monetarily, physically, spiritually, intellectually, etcetera; but for me it didn't cost much money because all my friends were gangbangers or meth chefs who kept me supplied at a fraction of street-value prices. Now most of these people are dead or imprisoned, and I will never cease being grateful to whatever powers that be that I'm not among them. So, exersize it is. But first, I have to finish this nice Margarita I just made... __________________ Few people have the imagination for reality. ~Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

05-17-2005, 08:00 PM	#251
*Tessar* Master and Wielder of the Cardboard Harp of Gondor Join Date: Sep 2001 Location: IM IN UR POSTZ, EDITIN' UR WURDZ Posts: 6,433	Lets stop talking about drugs please . BB, Lot, and Snow, if you guys want to continue the discussion please move it to PMs. Thanks guys .

05-17-2005, 08:14 PM	#252
Lotesse of the House of Fëanor Join Date: Apr 2005 Location: Los Angeles Posts: 6,150	I figured someone would say something pretty soon - sorry 'bout that, Tessar, suppose I was going on about it a little much. __________________ Few people have the imagination for reality. ~Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

05-17-2005, 08:40 PM	#254
*Tessar* Master and Wielder of the Cardboard Harp of Gondor Join Date: Sep 2001 Location: IM IN UR POSTZ, EDITIN' UR WURDZ Posts: 6,433	nod If you need to talk about it that's fine, but we do have some younger members so I'd rather it didn't delve into the full blown description of it right here on the open board . Please do feel free to talk to other members about it though.

05-17-2005, 09:46 PM	#255
Lotesse of the House of Fëanor Join Date: Apr 2005 Location: Los Angeles Posts: 6,150	thanx, you guys. Entmoot really is one of the little things I've got in my life that I can do & look forward to that helps keep me clean; I never NEVER talk about these things from my past to anyone except here in Entmoot. __________________ Few people have the imagination for reality. ~Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

05-18-2005, 10:55 AM	#257
Spock An enigma in a conundrum Join Date: Oct 1999 Posts: 6,476	That's not what Tessar mean nor said You can PM each other and still expand someones knowledge of a topic, it's just that there are some under age members that don't need to hear the horror stories from your past. We're not against sharing the information, just the way you do it. __________________ Vizzini: "HE DIDN'T FALL?! INCONCEIVABLE!!" Inigo: "You keep using that word. I do not think it means what you think it means."

05-18-2005, 01:15 PM	#259
Snowdog Dúnedain Ranger of the North Join Date: Aug 2000 Location: The Ruins of Arnor Posts: 892	Sorry for venting. __________________ "I am an outlaw, I was born an outlaw's son. The highway is my legacy, on the highway I will run."

05-18-2005, 01:47 PM	#260
Insidious Rex Quasi Evil Join Date: Jan 2003 Location: Maryland, US Posts: 4,634	Man how pathetically sad... __________________ "People's political beliefs don't stem from the factual information they've acquired. Far more the facts people choose to believe are the product of their political beliefs." "Injustice anywhere is a threat to justice everywhere."