Temporary Venting Thread - Page 11

***Tessar*** · 05-02-2005, 02:22 PM

Just stick with it Rian--I stopped playing anything but the music I already knew for months and months, but within two months of starting to sight read again, I had started picking it back up and was actually getting better than I had been.

*huggles for Starr*

Andúril · 05-02-2005, 03:59 PM

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Originally Posted by Tessar

Whoa Andural. You might wanna think about that one a LITTLE longer before you do something like that...

I've been thinking about nothing else since (April 15-18).

Andúril · 05-02-2005, 04:00 PM

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Originally Posted by Spock

So a problem with women who are huge or a problem with one woman that seems insurmountable?

One and a half. The latter, and well, she's pretty tall at 6'3''.

***Tessar*** · 05-02-2005, 04:00 PM

Then it might be a good idea to back away from the situation for a while--when you're talking about something like this, 'true love' found in four days usually doesn't last.

***Rían*** · 05-02-2005, 04:02 PM

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Originally Posted by Tessar

Just stick with it Rian--I stopped playing anything but the music I already knew for months and months, but within two months of starting to sight read again, I had started picking it back up and was actually getting better than I had been.

Thanks, Tessar. Yeah, it's been a rough year - I'd only play once or twice a month for quite a long time, and only the pieces I knew. I just tried the new piece a few days ago and was dismayed with my sight-reading, but after an hour it was coming back a bit. It's a good skill to keep up.

Andúril · 05-02-2005, 04:04 PM

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Originally Posted by Lotesse

Yeah, that's what I was gonna say--the woman's huge? kidding... but seriously, Anduril, IMO moving a thousand miles away to be with someone you had an amazing 4-day fling with, who is LIVING with another man--sounds potentially disastrous.

And potentially the best thing that will ever happen to me.

Andúril · 05-02-2005, 04:06 PM

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Originally Posted by Butterbeer

as for the rest of it; well life's for living and personally i admire you for it (maybe you could hedge your bets ref: resigning and take a 2 weeker first to see how it pans out??)

anyway good luck with BIG BURTHA or whatever her name is

you sound like you seriously got the Bug man! sometimes you just gotta take that trip y'know? Like i said LIFE!

Be careful though as you rush head-long in ( and thats from experience mate)

Life's too short. If it doesn't work, I'll make a plan. But I have to try.

Andúril · 05-02-2005, 04:08 PM

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Originally Posted by Tessar

My only thought is that if she'll leave the man she's currently living with to be with you, will she leave you to live with someone else later?

We have discussed this. The possibility is there, definitely.

Andúril · 05-02-2005, 04:19 PM

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Originally Posted by Tessar

Then it might be a good idea to back away from the situation for a while--when you're talking about something like this, 'true love' found in four days usually doesn't last.

She will hopefully be making The Decision this or next week. After that (and if it's the decision I'm hoping for), it will be at least a month here in Cape Town before moving up, and even then, we won't be living together just yet.

Nerdanel · 05-02-2005, 04:35 PM

Good luck, Andúril.

Spock · 05-02-2005, 06:36 PM

To dream of love and when it comes not to reach for it is foolish.

Lotesse · 05-02-2005, 06:43 PM

Yeah, you're right, Spock.

Starr Polish · 05-02-2005, 06:59 PM

I agree, Spock. I think I've missed out on an amazing relationship because of fear...might be doing the same thing right now, but honestly at the moment I just want to feel better.

Getting away's not really an option...I have no way to do it since I lack transportation. I'll be done on Thursday, however, and I don't ahve any finals tomorrow, so I am going to relax and read The Subtle Knife.

Spock · 05-03-2005, 08:23 AM

..yes, a book, a hot shower or warm bath and a cup o tea or other, will often relax you more than traveling.

Butterbeer · 05-04-2005, 05:47 AM

well it wasn't so much the travelling i was suggesting, just getting away somewhere ( can be very local) different and restful even for a few hours: just to refresh the mind and literally be in a different place physically and mentally: a river, park, canal, etc?

anyway goodluck with finals

Starr Polish · 05-09-2005, 04:07 AM

Thank you.

Well...finals are over. And just in time for this happy event, I may have screwed over a friendship because of some bad judgement.

Arg.

Andúril · 05-09-2005, 06:36 AM

Update.

She is supposed to make her decision while on a business trip, during which time she will not be with either of us. I didn't want to interfere or influence her during this time, so we agreed that we wouldn't talk (or communicate in any form) for the extent of her trip.

The longest that I'd been without talking to her was 23 hours, at which time I broke and made the call.

On Sunday at 00h22, I was so fed up with myself and my newfound sensitivity and emotional volatility that I told her that I wasn't going to be weak about it, and I suggested that we not talk the next day. I'd text her later in the day or evening, and we'd extend the "radio silence" in increments until her trip, which would make the one or two week period easier. She said "okay" and then we said goodnight.

Sunday was hell. I woke up, went to my phone, no messages. Connected to the net, no email. She wasn't on MSN. Wasn't on our forum.

I waited the whole day feeling like my insides were melting, then sent the message at about 10pm:

"Hi, hope you had a good day. Will sms u tomorrow night or maybe on Tuesday."
"My day was fine thanks. What about yours?"
"Hell"
"Gnight"

Woke up this morning, feel exactly the same, no messages, no emails are work, I can't get to MSN, she's browsing the forum.

But I'm not going to text her today. Probably not the next day either.

She phoned this morning:

"Hi."
"I can't talk."
"Bye."
"Bye."

When we finally get to her trip, and she calls me with the decision, I will just say, "yeah" and hang up. Then it will be officially over.

I've been listening to Kelly Clarkson's Since U Been Gone since Friday. Parts of the song I initially thought were identical to my situation.

It was never going to work. She deserves better, already has better. I have no money, but debt, I can't move to her, my garage was broken into this morning. So many things that are wrong with "us" that I can't remember now because that's what happens, I forget them.

I could be actively losing any chances I might have had to be with her. And I supposedly "love her". Maybe I'm more in love with the idea that I can actually realize a sick, life-long desire for a romantic tragedy.

Maybe this feeling will go away soon. Else I don't know what I'm going to do.

Andúril · 05-09-2005, 06:44 AM

Oh, she emailed after our phone call.

"And when I phoned this morning I was longing to hear you say "Hello" in the way you always do when answering the phone and realizing it is me. But this morning you waited until I spoke. My heart cracked...and when you said you can't talk - it broke!"

She feels pain now. Both of us do. Hopefully this will help her to carry on with her life. Get over me sooner rather than later.

Me, I am being eaten away.
And savouring every minute of it.

Here's the thing we started off friends
It was cool but it was all pretend
Yeah yeah
Since you've been gone

You dedicated you took the time
Wasn't long till I called you mine
Yeah Yeah
Since you've been gone

And all you'd ever hear me say
Is how I pictured me with you
That's all you'd ever hear me say

But since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get
What I want
Since you've been gone

How can I put it? you put me on
I even fell for that stupid love song
Yeah yeah
Since you've been gone

How come I never hear you say
I just wanna be with you
I guess you never felt that way

But since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get
I get what I want
Since you've been gone

You had your chance you blew it
Out of sight, out of mind
Shut your mouth I just can't take it
Again and again and again and again

Since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get
I get what I want
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get (I get)
You should know (you should know)
That I get
I get what I want
Since you've been gone
Since you've been gone
Since you've been gone

In the tragic context, this song makes perfect sense.

Spock · 05-09-2005, 11:51 AM

To move through the pain and come out the otherside whole, is difficult but possible. All good wishes for you to accomplish that.

Insidious Rex · 05-09-2005, 01:32 PM

Aint love just a grand kick in the bajoongas?

05-02-2005, 04:35 PM	#210
Nerdanel Spammer of the Happy Thread Join Date: Dec 2003 Location: Helsinki, Finland Posts: 3,512	Good luck, Andúril. __________________ "Somewhere, something incredible is waiting to be known. " - C. Sagan My (photography) website My Flickr page

05-02-2005, 06:36 PM	#211
Spock An enigma in a conundrum Join Date: Oct 1999 Posts: 6,476	To dream of love and when it comes not to reach for it is foolish. __________________ Vizzini: "HE DIDN'T FALL?! INCONCEIVABLE!!" Inigo: "You keep using that word. I do not think it means what you think it means."

05-02-2005, 06:43 PM	#212
Lotesse of the House of Fëanor Join Date: Apr 2005 Location: Los Angeles Posts: 6,150	Yeah, you're right, Spock. __________________ Few people have the imagination for reality. ~Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

05-02-2005, 06:59 PM	#213
Starr Polish Elf Lord Join Date: Jan 2002 Location: Slow down and I sail on the river, slow down and I walk to the hill Posts: 2,389	I agree, Spock. I think I've missed out on an amazing relationship because of fear...might be doing the same thing right now, but honestly at the moment I just want to feel better. Getting away's not really an option...I have no way to do it since I lack transportation. I'll be done on Thursday, however, and I don't ahve any finals tomorrow, so I am going to relax and read The Subtle Knife. __________________ “The whole problem with the world is that fools and fanatics are always so certain of themselves, but wiser people so full of doubts.” –Bertrand Russell

05-03-2005, 08:23 AM	#214
Spock An enigma in a conundrum Join Date: Oct 1999 Posts: 6,476	..yes, a book, a hot shower or warm bath and a cup o tea or other, will often relax you more than traveling. __________________ Vizzini: "HE DIDN'T FALL?! INCONCEIVABLE!!" Inigo: "You keep using that word. I do not think it means what you think it means."

05-02-2005, 02:22 PM	#201
*Tessar* Master and Wielder of the Cardboard Harp of Gondor Join Date: Sep 2001 Location: IM IN UR POSTZ, EDITIN' UR WURDZ Posts: 6,433	Just stick with it Rian--I stopped playing anything but the music I already knew for months and months, but within two months of starting to sight read again, I had started picking it back up and was actually getting better than I had been. huggles for Starr

05-02-2005, 04:00 PM	#204
*Tessar* Master and Wielder of the Cardboard Harp of Gondor Join Date: Sep 2001 Location: IM IN UR POSTZ, EDITIN' UR WURDZ Posts: 6,433	Then it might be a good idea to back away from the situation for a while--when you're talking about something like this, 'true love' found in four days usually doesn't last.

05-04-2005, 05:47 AM	#215
Butterbeer Elf Lord Join Date: Mar 2005 Location: here and there Posts: 3,514	well it wasn't so much the travelling i was suggesting, just getting away somewhere ( can be very local) different and restful even for a few hours: just to refresh the mind and literally be in a different place physically and mentally: a river, park, canal, etc? anyway goodluck with finals

05-09-2005, 04:07 AM	#216
Starr Polish Elf Lord Join Date: Jan 2002 Location: Slow down and I sail on the river, slow down and I walk to the hill Posts: 2,389	Thank you. Well...finals are over. And just in time for this happy event, I may have screwed over a friendship because of some bad judgement. Arg. __________________ “The whole problem with the world is that fools and fanatics are always so certain of themselves, but wiser people so full of doubts.” –Bertrand Russell

05-09-2005, 06:36 AM	#217
Andúril The Original Corruptor Join Date: Feb 2002 Posts: 2,881	Update. She is supposed to make her decision while on a business trip, during which time she will not be with either of us. I didn't want to interfere or influence her during this time, so we agreed that we wouldn't talk (or communicate in any form) for the extent of her trip. The longest that I'd been without talking to her was 23 hours, at which time I broke and made the call. On Sunday at 00h22, I was so fed up with myself and my newfound sensitivity and emotional volatility that I told her that I wasn't going to be weak about it, and I suggested that we not talk the next day. I'd text her later in the day or evening, and we'd extend the "radio silence" in increments until her trip, which would make the one or two week period easier. She said "okay" and then we said goodnight. Sunday was hell. I woke up, went to my phone, no messages. Connected to the net, no email. She wasn't on MSN. Wasn't on our forum. I waited the whole day feeling like my insides were melting, then sent the message at about 10pm: "Hi, hope you had a good day. Will sms u tomorrow night or maybe on Tuesday." "My day was fine thanks. What about yours?" "Hell" "Gnight" Woke up this morning, feel exactly the same, no messages, no emails are work, I can't get to MSN, she's browsing the forum. But I'm not going to text her today. Probably not the next day either. She phoned this morning: "Hi." "I can't talk." "Bye." "Bye." When we finally get to her trip, and she calls me with the decision, I will just say, "yeah" and hang up. Then it will be officially over. I've been listening to Kelly Clarkson's Since U Been Gone since Friday. Parts of the song I initially thought were identical to my situation. It was never going to work. She deserves better, already has better. I have no money, but debt, I can't move to her, my garage was broken into this morning. So many things that are wrong with "us" that I can't remember now because that's what happens, I forget them. I could be actively losing any chances I might have had to be with her. And I supposedly "love her". Maybe I'm more in love with the idea that I can actually realize a sick, life-long desire for a romantic tragedy. Maybe this feeling will go away soon. Else I don't know what I'm going to do.

05-09-2005, 06:44 AM	#218
Andúril The Original Corruptor Join Date: Feb 2002 Posts: 2,881	Oh, she emailed after our phone call. "And when I phoned this morning I was longing to hear you say "Hello" in the way you always do when answering the phone and realizing it is me. But this morning you waited until I spoke. My heart cracked...and when you said you can't talk - it broke!" She feels pain now. Both of us do. Hopefully this will help her to carry on with her life. Get over me sooner rather than later. Me, I am being eaten away. And savouring every minute of it. Here's the thing we started off friends It was cool but it was all pretend Yeah yeah Since you've been gone You dedicated you took the time Wasn't long till I called you mine Yeah Yeah Since you've been gone And all you'd ever hear me say Is how I pictured me with you That's all you'd ever hear me say But since you've been gone I can breathe for the first time Im so movin on Yeah yeah Thanks to you Now I get What I want Since you've been gone How can I put it? you put me on I even fell for that stupid love song Yeah yeah Since you've been gone How come I never hear you say I just wanna be with you I guess you never felt that way But since you've been gone I can breathe for the first time Im so movin on Yeah yeah Thanks to you Now I get I get what I want Since you've been gone You had your chance you blew it Out of sight, out of mind Shut your mouth I just can't take it Again and again and again and again Since you've been gone I can breathe for the first time Im so movin on Yeah yeah Thanks to you (thanks to you) Now I get I get what I want I can breathe for the first time Im so movin on Yeah yeah Thanks to you (thanks to you) Now I get (I get) You should know (you should know) That I get I get what I want Since you've been gone Since you've been gone Since you've been gone In the tragic context, this song makes perfect sense.

05-09-2005, 11:51 AM	#219
Spock An enigma in a conundrum Join Date: Oct 1999 Posts: 6,476	To move through the pain and come out the otherside whole, is difficult but possible. All good wishes for you to accomplish that. __________________ Vizzini: "HE DIDN'T FALL?! INCONCEIVABLE!!" Inigo: "You keep using that word. I do not think it means what you think it means."

05-09-2005, 01:32 PM	#220
Insidious Rex Quasi Evil Join Date: Jan 2003 Location: Maryland, US Posts: 4,634	Aint love just a grand kick in the bajoongas? __________________ "People's political beliefs don't stem from the factual information they've acquired. Far more the facts people choose to believe are the product of their political beliefs." "Injustice anywhere is a threat to justice everywhere."