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Cardboard Harp of Gondor Join Date: Sep 2001
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Just stick with it Rian--I stopped playing anything but the music I already knew for months and months, but within two months of starting to sight read again, I had started picking it back up and was actually getting better than I had been.
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Cardboard Harp of Gondor Join Date: Sep 2001
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Then it might be a good idea to back away from the situation for a while--when you're talking about something like this, 'true love' found in four days usually doesn't last.
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Spammer of the Happy Thread
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Good luck, Andúril.
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An enigma in a conundrum
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To dream of love and when it comes not to reach for it is foolish.
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Yeah, you're right, Spock.
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I agree, Spock. I think I've missed out on an amazing relationship because of fear...might be doing the same thing right now, but honestly at the moment I just want to feel better.
Getting away's not really an option...I have no way to do it since I lack transportation. I'll be done on Thursday, however, and I don't ahve any finals tomorrow, so I am going to relax and read The Subtle Knife.
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An enigma in a conundrum
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..yes, a book, a hot shower or warm bath and a cup o tea or other, will often relax you more than traveling.
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well it wasn't so much the travelling i was suggesting, just getting away somewhere ( can be very local) different and restful even for a few hours: just to refresh the mind and literally be in a different place physically and mentally: a river, park, canal, etc?
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Thank you.
Well...finals are over. And just in time for this happy event, I may have screwed over a friendship because of some bad judgement. Arg.
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Update.
She is supposed to make her decision while on a business trip, during which time she will not be with either of us. I didn't want to interfere or influence her during this time, so we agreed that we wouldn't talk (or communicate in any form) for the extent of her trip. The longest that I'd been without talking to her was 23 hours, at which time I broke and made the call. On Sunday at 00h22, I was so fed up with myself and my newfound sensitivity and emotional volatility that I told her that I wasn't going to be weak about it, and I suggested that we not talk the next day. I'd text her later in the day or evening, and we'd extend the "radio silence" in increments until her trip, which would make the one or two week period easier. She said "okay" and then we said goodnight. Sunday was hell. I woke up, went to my phone, no messages. Connected to the net, no email. She wasn't on MSN. Wasn't on our forum. I waited the whole day feeling like my insides were melting, then sent the message at about 10pm: "Hi, hope you had a good day. Will sms u tomorrow night or maybe on Tuesday." "My day was fine thanks. What about yours?" "Hell" "Gnight" Woke up this morning, feel exactly the same, no messages, no emails are work, I can't get to MSN, she's browsing the forum. But I'm not going to text her today. Probably not the next day either. She phoned this morning: "Hi." "I can't talk." "Bye." "Bye." When we finally get to her trip, and she calls me with the decision, I will just say, "yeah" and hang up. Then it will be officially over. I've been listening to Kelly Clarkson's Since U Been Gone since Friday. Parts of the song I initially thought were identical to my situation. It was never going to work. She deserves better, already has better. I have no money, but debt, I can't move to her, my garage was broken into this morning. So many things that are wrong with "us" that I can't remember now because that's what happens, I forget them. I could be actively losing any chances I might have had to be with her. And I supposedly "love her". Maybe I'm more in love with the idea that I can actually realize a sick, life-long desire for a romantic tragedy. Maybe this feeling will go away soon. Else I don't know what I'm going to do. |
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Oh, she emailed after our phone call.
"And when I phoned this morning I was longing to hear you say "Hello" in the way you always do when answering the phone and realizing it is me. But this morning you waited until I spoke. My heart cracked...and when you said you can't talk - it broke!" She feels pain now. Both of us do. Hopefully this will help her to carry on with her life. Get over me sooner rather than later. Me, I am being eaten away. And savouring every minute of it. Here's the thing we started off friends It was cool but it was all pretend Yeah yeah Since you've been gone You dedicated you took the time Wasn't long till I called you mine Yeah Yeah Since you've been gone And all you'd ever hear me say Is how I pictured me with you That's all you'd ever hear me say But since you've been gone I can breathe for the first time Im so movin on Yeah yeah Thanks to you Now I get What I want Since you've been gone How can I put it? you put me on I even fell for that stupid love song Yeah yeah Since you've been gone How come I never hear you say I just wanna be with you I guess you never felt that way But since you've been gone I can breathe for the first time Im so movin on Yeah yeah Thanks to you Now I get I get what I want Since you've been gone You had your chance you blew it Out of sight, out of mind Shut your mouth I just can't take it Again and again and again and again Since you've been gone I can breathe for the first time Im so movin on Yeah yeah Thanks to you (thanks to you) Now I get I get what I want I can breathe for the first time Im so movin on Yeah yeah Thanks to you (thanks to you) Now I get (I get) You should know (you should know) That I get I get what I want Since you've been gone Since you've been gone Since you've been gone In the tragic context, this song makes perfect sense. |
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An enigma in a conundrum
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To move through the pain and come out the otherside whole, is difficult but possible. All good wishes for you to accomplish that.
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Aint love just a grand kick in the bajoongas?
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