06-25-2007, 07:33 PM | #1 |
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I believe; and therefore I know:
There is no soul, not one, that could fully and completely understand me: not one to comprehend the complexity of my being; and if comprehended, it is never to be appreciated, nor accepted. Not the beauty, nor the ugliness; not the consistency, nor the inconsistency; not the violent love, nor the silent hate; not the order, nor the chaos; not the yearning forward, nor the longing back. I am not competent of giving unlimited love, but I know I can give; neither am I capable of receiving it, but I know I can receive. Within me is a space, so vast no one will ever see it all: not even me, the body the space chose. Within the space, suns that are never seen but through the glow of pale, cold moons. I am not able to fall in love; but will all these negatives with time turn into positives? I am not worthy of my own affection, nor my despise: I am not worthy of me, others even less. I cannot give myself to anyone, for I'd be lost. I have a feeling this end will be uneven. How can truth be demanded when no one knows? How can I say: I did not lie to you, or hide me from you, when I do not know the space within? I am only a child, and I will never grow up. Growing up is dying, but so is staying. And I say I am not afraid of death, for it touches me not; but how do I know, when death might kiss my feet, already tonight? And let this be my answer: I am not what you think I am. I have not fallen for you, for I won't let my world fall; and even if it would, it would not be for you. One day, I might grow; one day, I might find I've lived for eternity and found my way around space; one day, I might be capable; and one day, I might fall: but not today, and never for you. Not in this lifetime. What I believe is what I know, for all the knowledge I have about myself is nought but guesses; and it is the best I can give, and it is the best you will get.
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Well written, Nerdanel. I found it very sad. Especially the fourth paragraph.
I found the first sentence, "I believe, and therefore I know," rather confusing though. I found the final line very sensible and logical. And rather dismal . Christianity offers more hope. The main theme of "Exhaust" seems to be the lacking of human knowledge. It also goes, a bit more lightly, I think, into the resolve to persevere in spite of that lack of knowledge. It's an interesting writing, Nerdanel, and I think it is quite well written. It's just also sad.
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Thank you, Lief. I'm happy to hear your thoughts on this.
I found the part about the main theme very interesting: could you expand a bit on that? How do you mean, lack of human knowledge? And I'm afraid Christianity cannot offer me, nor my world, any hope. To me personally, religion would be nothing if it wasn't the impact it has on the world around me. I do appreciate the power it has to give people hope, though.
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Thanks a lot, I really like the way you did that. Thanks, also, for pointing out the missing 'a'. X)
I'm afraid, though, that religion hasn't only had a positive impact on the world around me and especially not on me. But that might be a topic to discuss in another thread.
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By the way, I really like your signature "Do not despise bacteria - they're the only culture some people have." Lol.
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