self harming

[Pirate]

Those who want to end there life are tired of living. They see to much pain in it. They know there’s no way death can be worse in the life they live. The way you let your friends be depressed is you relate with them. I never asked for any help when I was depressed and if a friend had told somebody about my problems it would have only made things worse. Then I'd have felt even more alone because I could no longer trust my only friends with my secrets. When you’re depressed pain makes it feel better. I'd stab myself when I got so depressed I'd be mad. I'd get so angry I'd want to kill my whole family to show them. I didn't even know what it was I had against my parents, but whatever it was it was killing me and it made me angry. Too angry. So I'd take my anger out on myself. I don't do that anymore, except for when my parents are fighting and trying to involve me in there arguments. Now I know there are better ways to pull through life then to give up. I take out most of my depression on my Novel. My parents still don't know what I have thought and I'm happy with that. I don't want them in my life. I only want one person in my life and that's me. Only when I really need it do I go to a friend for help. I know my depression wasn't (and isn't) real. It's only angst and anger.